Deja vu

The countdown has begun to my 6th and final round of chemotherapy. Treatment is scheduled less than 2 weeks away. However, I am sick again. I know this was all my own doing. I was feeling good, so I did too much. Basically, I got out to see people, did a bit of running, and got sick. I currently have a sore throat and fever along with increased fatigue.

Did I say I was frustrated? I have to admit I'm sick of being sick, whether it's from an infection or leukemia symptoms or chemotherapy side effects. You know what's it's like to get the flu and you can't do anything, feel miserable, wonder when you're going to feel good again... Well, imagine that times 5 Years. I have pretty much felt like crap for 5 Years! I've done a good job ignoring most of my symptoms and getting out and doing things by pushing aside pain and making myself have energy, even if the energy wasn't there. However at the moment, I'm tired of being sick.

Ok, enough ranting. I'm looking beyond this last round of chemo to when I find out how well the last six months of chemotherapy have worked. That's the true test. I'll get over this current infection and I am thrilled to say that most of my leukemia symptoms have disappeared. I especially like that almost all of my pain from the leukemia is gone. It's been a long time since I have been free of pain. I'm also looking forward to my immune system rebounding, so I can get out and "do too much" and not get sick!

So now a word to the wise. Time to save up your energy and be forewarned, because the Wildwood Diva will be soon be out-and-about! =)